Today is a Mother’s Day, a special day to many, and a tough day for many as well. Mom’s who have children, have had children, mom’s who have lost children, and mom’s who haven’t been able to have children. Yes, even though some women haven’t been able to have children, I believe some are still moms because they have the heart of a mother. They have longed to be able to take care of a child and to be able to give a child love, even more so than some mom’s who actually do have kids.
Today is a tough day for Allyson and me, more so for Allyson because it is her first mother’s day and what mom wants to spend her first mother’s day without her baby. It has only been a little over 5 weeks since the birth and loss of our little Oliver Junebug, but it still feels like yesterday. Some days are tougher than others, and today is no exception.
I have been praying and really thinking hard about what Oliver would say to Allyson today if he could let her know how he feels. Below is a letter to Allyson from Oliver on what I think he would say to her on this special day.
“Dear Mommy,
Happy Mother’s Day to the greatest mommy in the world! I can’t tell you enough how much I miss you. How I miss feeling your warm touch and all the moments we shared. For 28 weeks you carried me and provided me with more than I needed. I miss you singing to me on the way to and home from work, the talks you had with me, and how much love you showed me, even when I was kicking you and pushing on your bladder :). Oh yeah, and mommy, the time we got to spend after I was born, when you got to hold me, kiss me, and see me for the first time, that was the most wonderful time, feeling your love and your arms wrapped around me, just holding me. I felt more love in those moments than some baby’s get in a lifetime. Also, I have to tell you that you are the most beautiful mommy a little boy could ever want and have, I brag about you all the time here in Heaven and Jesus just laughs at me and smiles.
Mommy, I love you so much and I know you love me, but don’t be sad today. Be happy because you gave me life and now I’m in Heaven and I can’t describe how awesome it is, I know you will love it! Jesus tells me how brave and strong you have been and how much you love and miss me, but that one day we are going to be together again, I can’t wait! He also said something about how you and I are part of some bigger plan for Him, and together we have been able to share His love with people all over the world. Wow mommy, I can’t tell you how proud of you and lucky I am to be your little boy! Please know we are all having a big party up here today for you and the other mommy’s who love and miss their children. All of the great grandma’s and great grandpa’s are helping us celebrate and telling us stories about our mommies. I can’t wait to hear more about you!
Mommy, know I am and will always be with you and we are going to be together again someday. I love you soooooo much mommy! We all are smiling down on you today and every day. Stay strong and keep showing the love of Jesus, because like He said, we are part of a bigger plan. Thank you for loving me and taking care of me mommy, I love you!
Your Little Baby Boy,
Oliver Matthew Junebug Foster (I love my name by the way!)”
God Bless all mother’s today and Happy Mother’s day to Ally’s mom Janet and my mom Kyna, I know they are missing their mom’s today too, just as Oliver misses Allyson.
Thanks for reading,
Rob
